Wednesday, July 15, 2009 ; 10:05 AMY
Lalalala-lalalala, Elmo's world :D
:( don't like this.
:$ shy. so paiseh. hahahahaha. nvm.
I need to clear my head to play well in soccer!!
Lalalala-lalalala, Elmo's world :D
ERROR!!! hahaha. Trust me to make this kind of mistakes.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009 ; 12:57 PMY
Lalalala-lalalala, Elmo's world :D
Fuck you.
You don't even give a shit about how i feel.
You keep watch. You keep an eye.
But you really are being such a fucking nitwit.
I don't want to care any more. I don't wanna think.
GBSLGBSLGBSL. GBSL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's not the first time any way. it's not the first time any way. it's not the first time any way. it's not the first time any way!! GnBG. GnBGGnBGGnBG.!!!!!!!
Crying is not a sign of weakness. Acceptance is not enough. What am I supposed to do??
Oh god.
Friday, July 10, 2009 ; 1:43 AMY
Lalalala-lalalala, Elmo's world :D
Tak boleh tahan!!!!
Wednesday, July 08, 2009 ; 4:17 PMY
Lalalala-lalalala, Elmo's world :D
want to go
and
let
loose.
Get drunk.
Get free.
Get crazy.
Mix me a drink.
A cocktail.
or a tinsy bitsy...
Triple!
hahahas.
Hope it'll be fun.
Tuesday, July 07, 2009 ; 4:58 AMY
Lalalala-lalalala, Elmo's world :D
and then they'll all leave.
i want to find xiu huan back again. where are you..?
Monday, July 06, 2009 ; 1:35 PMY
Lalalala-lalalala, Elmo's world :D
You know how sometimes you try repetitively but it doesn't work out? And then u try to juggle so many things u just get so tired at the end of each day? But yet you can't ever let go of anything because it's what u really love?
I feel that I sound so cliche. But somehow what I'm feeling now is seems something that i've not experienced before. Something rather unique. The frustration.. It's of a different level. It's of frustration from so many different things.. from P,soccer;work;family;love;friends;studies;philosophy of life.
I don't really know what I live for. I guess I could name lots of people and some stuff that are important to me that I really appreciate, but for myself... I live for myself, yes. But I don't know what it is that i ask of myself. Is it performance/achievement? excelling in every thing that i do? or to enjoy life? to learn? to empathise? really not quite sure where my focus lies.
And it's nowhere in sight either.
This gloominess has been hanging over me for a substantial period of time.. It's affecting my behaviour, and also especially my play in soccer. It's deteriorating drastically. Probably due to P as well, and the way I try to come to terms to it is, as we have seen in previous episodes, try to busy myself/indulge in the things that are happening around me. But I know that deep down inside there's still that yearning. Sigh.
I used to say that maybe I stayed at EB because I always believed that somebody would come along..
will you just please stop crying.
Thursday, July 02, 2009 ; 3:24 PMY
Lalalala-lalalala, Elmo's world :D
stuck in the throat. can't put it into words.
Then i'll just shove it to the back of my mind.
And pretend that nothing happened.
Until it's rigged up again.
Lalalala-lalalala, Elmo's world :D
Hmm.
3 days in a row so far. I wonder if it'll continue.
But just not thinking about it shouldn't be the right answer to things.. even though it is my answer to most things.
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